Sometimes I walk around (actually more like every day) feeling like there are pins and blades in my heart. I feel like my chest is being gnawed, as if pieces of steel are cutting away, kniving away at whatever they can find. It's uncomfortable.
I never thought my life would look like this on the inside....I thought I would be over-joyous every day singing and dancing atop the top of some hill in the sunshine, laughing in bliss but it didn't turn out that way. But I know that singing, dancing girl is somewhere within me....She's free. Even amongst all the knives coming at her, she's free.